- Dry mouth
- Trouble sleeping
- Headaches
- Dizziness
- Some weird feeling I have trouble explaining that used to be a rare thing but now happens multiple times a day (i think it’s a mixture of shame, embarrassment and guilt) and only lasts a minute.
- Some minor weight loss (only half a kg, so could be anything really, like not eating as much the last few days…)
Nothing I can’t handle so far.
Unless the sleeping thing lasts weeks.
Just took my first Pristiq tablet.
Only 50mg but I am freaking the fuck out.
I really didn’t think I would be going down this road again.
The last anti depressant I took was Cymbalta and that one was horrible.
I wish this wasn’t happening.
Honestly.
=(
Had a blood test, I peed into a cup and stuck an extra long cotton tip bud into my vagina at the doctors today.
Results Monday they said.
The lady doctor thinks it is all stress/anxiety/depression related.
Basically she thinks it is all in my head and that I am cleaning my genitals too much and over drying myself after going to the toilet.
Here is the scary part.
I have been subscribed anti depressants. Pristiq. I start taking them tomorrow.
I haven’t been on anti depressants for years and every time I have been on them it has gotten a lot worse.
Fingers crossed.
But if I wake up screaming or find myself sitting on the shower floor gripping my head and crying about being able to feel my brain change, I’m heading straight back to the doctors office.
I log on to facebook and someone in my family makes a public status update which basically sounded like a joke about some young girl getting pregnant.
Then one of her stupid friends comes in and says where this person lives and her name and that she heard she had been raped.
They continue having a discussion about this and then I told them to stop being twats and delete the update because you don’t talk about things like that on a public update and then…
stupid person tries to win a fucking argument against me on how they weren’t being horrible or what ever the flying fuckery I just read.
She claims she isn’t stupid but she can’t get it through her thick fucking head that talking about a girl being raped and saying her fucking name and whereabouts is a BAD THING.
Fucking moron.
First time walking to work in a while because I can’t get a lift with the usual two people and it fucking rains.
And my work shoes are not water proof.
And I have to walk past a hipster cafe.
At least I get to take my new black umbrella with frilly edges and white hearts all over it out for its debut.
- My anxiety and depression has been rather high and I have once again closed myself off from talking to people and avoiding facebook chat like it’s the plague.
- My vagina is irritated and there are a few things that I am pretty sure is wrong but instead of self diagnosing I will be calling the doctor on Monday and trying to get an appointment with a female doctor this coming week.
- Here is some TMI for everyone….that skin around the bottom of the vagina that stretches, I am pretty sure that keeps getting split and that is causing the pain and discomfort I get. Also I might have to start buying a hypoallergenic laundry detergent to stop irritation. Sex is already stressful enough and now all this shit which makes me avoid sex even more. Urgh.
- So because of the above I am now stressing about what the fuck this will do to my relationship.
- Seven has been obsessed with seeing invisible bugs on the curtains, so he has managed to destroy the green curtains we purchased months ago for the living room.
- Seven is also obsessed with scooting his shit all over the carpet and lights reflected off mirrors which makes him mildly obsessed and insane.
- Vegas is well….Vegas.
- I play Uno every day on Xbox. I hit the 1000 losses mark. Woot.
- I still don’t sleep well at night.
- I need girls to talk to me about vagina problems because I feel pretty fucking alone and keep thinking the worst of everything.
9 days later and I think my period is finally leaving me.
I suppose I should now make an appointment to see a doctor and find out what the fuck is up with my hormones.
Okay.
This is my rep on Xbox.
All the people who avoided me and gave me unsporting and quit early rep are people who play Uno.
I understand the quit early. Although, I have never actually left a game of Uno on purpose. Every single time I leave a game it’s because my internet shit itself and I got disconnected.
But the unsporting…
When I get unsporting rep for playing Uno, it’s one of two things. I win and people get cranky and want revenge. Or I use cards I have no choice in using like wild draw 4 or draw 2 and people get shitty and want revenge.
It’s pretty fucking childish and for some reason, Uno is the only game I have played online where people have acted this way. Especially on mic. You get people abusing you simply for playing the game how you’re suppose to play it.
What? You want me to leave the game instead of using a card you don’t like? Are you 2 years old?
Ranked games of uno.
People take this shit too seriously.
